We had our first glimpse at baby today and I can't quite put in to words what that meant or felt like for me but I'll try.
It felt like my heart cracked open a little bit wider, like my entire world had been flipped upside down. Like I would never be unhappy again. I mourned the loss of my non-mommy days in that moment while looking forward to the first time I get to hold that little life in my arms. I felt like laughing and crying and jumping up and down but instead squeezed Joe's hand and smiled. Seeing our summer child in there, kicking and punching the air made everything so much more real for me.
All that, from just a glimpse.
P.S. For those of you going "whhhhaaaaaaaaa?" right now, please see my last post of 2013 where I spill the beans sneakily. ;)