Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Today is my due date, but our son decided he was ready to join the world last week.
Orion was born July 17, 2014 at 2:41 pm, after 88 hours of labor - 26 of which were active, almost all of which was in my back. He was delivered naturally without medication, with the cord around his neck twice and was caught by daddy, to thunderous applause from a room full of medical students who had never seen a natural birth while Day-O played on Pandora. Future Beetlejuice fan? ;-)
He weighed 7.9 lbs, 19.75 inches and is ready to rock this life thing. Thank you to our rock star doulas for being by our sides the whole time and helping us know everything was and would be ok. It's amazing how cracking jokes and talking about songs stuck in your head can make something intense seem less so.
This first week (tomorrow) has been one of the hardest yet most rewarding of my life.
Welcome Earthside, baby boy!
Friday, July 11, 2014
You may recall that a few years ago,
A cheeky Goat met and wooed a certain Doe.
Maybe you've wondered what happened to the pair?
Perhaps curious if that love of theirs is still in the air?
Three years have passed since that Midsummer eve,
when the Goat kissed the Fawn 'neath the red bud tree.
The pair sit sipping a romantic tea,
a few shorts weeks before the two become three!
Yes, friends, it's true, a babe is on the way!
"But what will it be?" several of you say!
Will it have horns tall and thin,
or will it have curved ones to match its grin?
Will it be silly?
Will it be cheeky?
Will it be daring?
Will it be hairy?
We won't know 'til the babe is here,
who knows what you get when you mix
a goat and a deer!
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Sunday, June 29, 2014
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This Week I am Grateful For:
* My evening ritual that I wrote about here. I think Joe also really enjoys this evening sit down of ours; he got tied up on the phone and in the middle of a project the other night and when Luna and I came in for the night said he was bummed out that he didn't get to hang out with us. Poor guy!
* It being cool enough a few mornings for me to get out in to the garden and do some maintenance. I needed to put bigger cages on some of the tomato plants, guide the cucumber up some additional trellis, pick some goodies and pull some tenacious weeds. I'm going to need to relocate a pepper plant or two as the plants I put around them have grown out of control and are blocking the sun a bit. And spicy peppers LOVE the sun, so that won't do.
* Having a surprise dinner date with the hubster when I said I was having a craving for a Mexican Coca Cola (made with real sugar and not corn syrup - so much better!). Rather than taking me to the store for a bottle, he took me to this little Honduran/Salvadoran restaurant for Pupusas and Coke. :)
* Getting outside and making some flower/plant mandalas on the patio table. I've never done them before but have been feeling this urge to do so. They're a great way to take a few minutes to really be "in the moment" as I gather, arrange and handle all the different natural elements involved.
* Having a great meeting with our doula. Baby is in an excellent position, we're all healthy, our birth plan is in place and we had good convos about all sorts of non-baby stuff too. When I'm less busy after baby's arrival she may even have a lead on some illustration work for me.
* Finished up the trio of small firefly paintings I've been working on for myself. Now to find a good place to display them in the house!
* Altered some maternity pants that friends gave me in to shorts so I can be comfy since I'll be pregnant and recovering throughout the entire Summer.
* Going out to dinner at our favorite pizza place to celebrate a birthday with friends.
* Small bunnies and baby birds all over the place in the yard! I love watching them all when I'm out there throughout the day.
* Re-Reading Harry Potter again, as I do every Summer. I don't think I'll ever get tired of reading the stories over and over again.
Saturday, June 28, 2014
This Week's Color are:
Lavender, Grey and a Splash of Plum.
This week's colors are so elegant and I felt could only be properly represented by a particularly regal monster; a dragon! Really. Grey and purples just cry out for a great scaly beast in my mind. Though, as you can see, this one isn't quite grown up yet. :)
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
Lately, despite the smothering heat and the lack of moisture that is killing everything in my yard and making my trees drop leaves like it's Autumn, I've been taking even more comfort and solace in the simple act of being outside than usual. Perhaps it's the discomfort I'm in most days as this baby gets bigger and bigger inside of me, maybe it's just a hatred of being cooped up in the Summer hiding from the heat that swells my feet and makes my body stream sweat, could be that it gives Luna mental stimulation while she is still on physical restrictions. Most likely though, it's simply that I've always been a dirt worshiper who feels better when I get outside, stick my bare feet on the ground and breath deeply.
On the rare mornings when it is still below 85* at 8am when Luna and I wake up and head out for her morning business, I grab a big cup of iced coffee and a book or my Moleskine and we sit side by side in chairs for as long as we have before the heat drives us both inside, panting. On breezy afternoons, I grab a quilt and a big cup of ice water and we head out to sit wherever there happens to be a lot of shade and a lack of fire ant hills.
But what's become a nearly nightly ritual, which I look forward to and don't even mind having to swat the blood sucking mosquitoes away to enjoy, is sitting outside at dusk watching the fireflies come out. Some nights I only manage to sit outside for 20 minutes, because I got out late or am not feeling very well and others I stay out there for hours. Usually Joe and Luna sit outside with me, he brings out a fan to blow the blood suckers away so I don't get eaten or have to bathe in bug spray, and we either chat or just sit quietly and let the sounds of Summer nights mingle with the dancing insects around us.
While I'm out there, my mind and body feel like they've shut down as I enjoy this magical display of tiny fireworks over grass and in the trees. For that period of time there are no bills, no concerns about the big changes coming, no discomfort, no stress, no worries. I'm completely relaxed, even more so than after a warm shower or bath, and everything that was previously filling my head, any tension at all, just slides away. When the lights have faded away, the lightning bugs thinning away until barely any are left and I go inside, I'm not bothered by the things I didn't get to on my To-Do list, I'm not aggravated by my lack of energy during the day, I don't beat myself up for the unwashed dishes, the unfolded laundry, the half-finished projects on my desks. I don't view that time outside as wasted or pointless, like I do with so many other forms of distraction (like when I've spent a lot of time watching TV or online).
Instead I view it as a nourishing and important ritual, something that I seem to need right now. Those magical little bugs, the frog princes and crickets singing their song as the sky darkens over head create moments for me to renew and replenish myself, moments to be treasured and to fall back on when I need them.
Nature is by far the most powerful of healers and no time spent with it can or should ever be viewed as wasted.
Friday, June 20, 2014
Week Two's Colors are:
Colar, Teal and a splash of Bright White.
And here is this week's monster, based on the color prompts. He's a silly, fuzzy, many eyed bugger. :)
Thursday, June 19, 2014
About a month ago, I decided I wanted to have some sort of ceremony with my soul sisters and friends far and wide and from all paths and walks of life to commemorate and celebrate my passage in to motherhood. Throughout this entire pregnancy I've been craving sisterhood and feminine bonding; real, deep feminine bonding not the shallow sort where people just pat you on the back, say you'll be a great mommy, and focus on the baby. In an act some would call selfish, I decided to celebrate myself and invite others to celebrate me as well.
All I asked of these sisters was to simply send me a bead. If they wanted to send a note or something else, that was fine, but the bead was the token requested. I collected all of the beads together and put them on my altar to wait for June's Full Moon when I would string them all together on to a necklace under Momma Moon's watchful gaze and create a string of prayer beads to hold or wear when I give birth or need to feel especially loved or empowered. I invited the other women to sit under the moon with me, wherever they happened to be and to send up some energy, a prayer, a wish in whatever fashion they chose to celebrate the bonds of sisterhood, myself and this transition of mine.
When the Full Moon came, it fell on Friday the 13th, typically a lucky day for me. When I picked the June Full Moon, it was because it gave my necklace a full cycle to sit in the moon's light before baby's estimated arrival. I didn't even notice the date. A little bit of universal serendipity.
That evening, I was feeling exhausted and worn out both emotionally and physically. I had planned this day of exquisite self care, where in I'd soak in the tub, sip raspberry iced tea, paint my nails, lay outside on the blanket in the grass with Luna and paint or read. None of that went to plan. I ventured out to the store in the morning for a few things, came home and felt queasy and tired. I spent almost the entire day on the couch with Luna. No painting, no reading, no afternoon nap in the shade. I was incredibly bummed out. I did however manage to take a nice long warm shower, not the bath I had planned on but the warm water and lavender soap melted away a lot of tension and unhappiness and relaxed me just the same.
When night fell and the time came for me to sit before my altar, the moon was hidden behind storm clouds and it was raining. But I could still feel her there. I called on my Gods and spirits and momma moon to join me and held my usual Full Moon ritual, as well as blessing the amber necklaces I got for both baby and I along with the beads. I pulled my guiding card for the cycle, The Green Woman, and then moved to my bed to lay out and string the beads.
This is something I actually did twice, as I decided to add stops every so often to keep the more delicate beads from being crushed or cracked by heavier ones. My own contributions to the necklace are the sculpted Gaia, the evil eye bead and 3 blue goldstones - the same stones I used to create my wedding jewelry 5 years ago. As I strung the beads, I thought of each woman who sent them to me, about our relationship, about the prayers, wishes or secrets they sent along with their beads and sent some love out to each of them individually. There was a warm vibration in each of the beads, which was magnified tenfold when they were all gathered together on the beading cord. I'm awaiting some late arrivals, so the ends aren't finished off yet but I did drape it around my neck to feel the weight of it and aside from being long and hefty (it hangs nearly to my naval), there is something so empowering, so primal and so divine in the donning of it.
This token of sisterhood without borders, this tangible celebration of me, will serve not only as a powerful talisman during my birthing time but also as a treasure to remind me for the rest of my life of the power inherent in female bonds that aren't tainted by social, religious, physical or other stigma or competition.
P.S. If you weren't invited please don't be offended, it wasn't from a lack of love, but from a lack of knowing how to contact you outside of blog comments. If you'd like to send me a bead, I won't be closing off the necklace for a few weeks still. Please email me at artful.danni at Gmail and we'll get things sorted out. :)