Saturday, December 31, 2011

So Long, 2011.

Compared to 2010 which was a whirlwind of change and activity, 2011 was a pretty low key year. My brother moved down here and briefly stayed with us (and as much as I love him, I'm glad he's moved out!) and my sister made me an aunt for the very first time, to a beautiful baby girl.


We searched for a few months for our first house and I'm pleased to say that a last minute change of my mind as to where I wanted to live brought us to the perfect home for us. We made the decision to get ourselves out of debt, which led to me finding a part time job (that has been not so part time) and re-affirming my knowledge that no matter where you live, or what you may have heard about a place, people are still asshats. While I've not made many friends down here, I've become more comfortable with myself and just hanging out alone; making steps back towards the happy go lucky loner I used to be.


I've taken my One Word for 2011 to heart and let go of a lot of the feelings and material things that I no longer needed. Some were burned away by fire, others were let go to the wind. Some were donated to charity and some found their way to the rubbish bin. I've cleaned house and my heart and made room for the things that are worth holding on to; while I never received formal closure to some wounds, I no longer need it. I'm still working on letting go, both of things in the past and the present and so I won't be leaving this in 2011. This little phrase is something that will stick with me and become a mantra of sorts; a sort of road map back to a happiness in which not a single fuck was given about what someone thought of me. I'm letting go of the stigmas and the fears and just embracing me. A fairy loving, tree hugging, dirt worshipping wife, woman and witch with a wild (yet slightly timid) heart, a fondness for earth and ale and a (sometimes cruel) sarcastic streak.


Which leads me into 2012's word(s), which build upon the foundation that I laid in 2011. These two, to me, go hand in hand because one cannot happen without the other. And they are:

Heal

1. To restore to health or soundness; cure.
2. To set right; repair,
3. To restore or be restored to friendly relations, harmony, etc.
4. To restore (a person) to spiritual wholeness.


I plan to heal from the traumas and injustices from my past. To restore the faiths and beliefs I've lost along the way. I want to restore my faith in myself; to know that my true, soulful, and genuine self is the best person I can ever be. And that I should never, ever apologize for any of it.

And in so doing, I plan to:

Flourish

1. To grow or develop in a healthy or vigorous way, esp. as the result of a particularly favorable environment
2. To be in one's prime; be at the height of fame, excellence, influence, etc.
3. To be successful; prosper.
4. To grow luxuriantly, or thrive in growth, as a plant.


As in, to let the best parts of me grow, while the worst parts of me are left behind to wither away. I'm actually working on one of those 30 by 30 bucket lists for this year, to start on my 29th birthday. It may sound a bit ambitious, perhaps a bit like I'm setting myself up for disappointment, but I have this feeling in my guts that 2012 is going to be a big year for me. Even if it doesn't seem so big from the outside.

Here's a toast to the shiny new year! May it be filled with all the changes, dreams, growth and love you can handle.

P.S. Is anyone else picking one word or making a resolution this year?
P.P.S. What sort of recap would this be without a wee bit more photo sharing? Here are some snaps from 2011.





13 comments:

  1. I love this post. My phrase for the new year is '2012 will be my bitch!'. Best wishes to you for a bright 2012!
    xx

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  2. This is a terrific post. All Danni and all wonderful. I like your choice of words for 2012. Good ones to live by indeed.
    I wish for you a sense of peace in your quest, light in your life and hope in your heart....these too shall make your year a hearty soup of living.
    with much love and friendship, Oma Linda

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  3. LOVE this post!!! My words for 2012 are Release and Truth....I was trying to pick just one...but you have helped me "release" that and I have decided to have TWO! Happy New Year!!

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  4. This was such a lovely post danny, I love how you write and your honest ways! May all of your wishes come true!
    A very happy new year to you and your husband!

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  5. Such an inspirational post. Thank you. May 2012 see you well and happy. Blessings for the New Year.

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  6. Danni, you are a strong and beautiful woman, an inspiration to all who choose to live their true lives. May you heal and flourish beyond your wildest dreams. Happy new year sweetie.

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  7. you are AWESOME!!! :) loved the post!
    happy new year!

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  8. I hope the new year is everything you are looking for and more. Blessings!!

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  9. Happy New Year, lovie! You & I & our sweeties are going to have our best year yet. I can feel it. ^-^

    Your post made me all teary for some reason (I'm such a sap...lolz), but I'm so happy for you. You are such a wonderful, magical, inspiring woman. Love yourself uber tons, cause you totally are that awesome. ^-^

    Your holiday/post holiday card will be in the mail tomorrow... Sorry it's late, procrastination is something I'm working on getting rid of. ^-^

    So... here's to our new year of bliss!

    XOXO

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  10. Lovely post. Good luck with the word and goals associated with it. I love the idea of one word. I chose nurture last year and it was great... this year I'm going for balance, which is something I definitely need.

    And I love the pics! No post is complete without a few good pics!

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  11. Hi Danni girl!
    You're so beautiful with all your "flourishings" ;) 2012 is going to be my year to open new books like moving out of state and I really admire how you've managed to not only stay afloat with everything but how you let go and "let be...". Healing is something we or at least I take for granted or misunderstand. It happens on so many levels and often is quiet and not the grand slam we think it ought to be. Equanimity is my word for 2012, in other words keeping balanced with the storms and the sunshine. Story of my life ;)

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  12. When I read your opening line of this about 2011 being a quiet one for you I was a wee bit confuddled - for a second there I was starting to think I was on the wrong blog, or you'd come down with a touch of amnesia, or I had gone totally mad and had imagined all those posts where you did *little* things like buy a house! :)
    Anyway missus, sorry it's been so long. Hope you had a lovely holiday and that this year is as eventful as the last,
    Roisin x

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  13. Flourish was my word for 2011 as well. I always kept it in the back of my mind through all the turmoil last year. I believe it did it's magic because I'm still here in one piece and I learned a lot about myself and others.

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