Friday, July 29, 2011

Balance and the Black Wolf


The Black Wolf and The Torch Bearer - Ball Point Pen.


All around us, there is balance. The cycles of nature, the seasons, are balanced. There is a time to sow and a time to harvest. A time for life to die back and a time for it to begin again; renewed. It is present in the passing of days, shared by the sun and the moon. These balances are necessary, for without darkness there could be no light.

In theory.

Light could still exist without the juxtaposition of darkness, however, would we truly appreciate it in that state? If we never experienced the chill and cold, the onset of despair that can be found and fought in the night would we be as thankful for dawn's breaking light and day's warmth? Does one who has never experienced drought or heat, appreciate the coming of rain as much as one who has?

By the same token, there is a balance that strives to exist within ourselves. It is the constant dance of light and dark that takes place in our minds, our emotions, our spirits. We go through periods of happiness as well as melancholy, both are necessary and it is worth getting to know these aspects of ourselves. The Goddess of Crossroads, the torch bearer, often comes to bring me light when I most need it. As one who has been prone to unexplainable periods of gloom since my teens, I've gotten accustomed to the darkness, the Black Wolf.

Sometimes the Black Wolf is called to my side by certain events. He envelops me in his darkness and I do not fight back. I surrender to the emotions and he sits patiently beside me until the Torch Bearer comes to lead the way back to the light. At other times he sprints unbidden from the shadows, nipping at my heels without warning. I can escape his jaws, but sometimes I am not fortunate enough to do so and at these times I find myself cloaked in the gloom for hours, days or weeks. The heavy weight of the Black Wolf sits on my chest, an unexplained lump of sadness, fear or listlessness. Often, I know not why he has come to pin me down and I occasionally fear his darkness will be unrelenting. Yet sometimes, in his darkness, there is something of importance waiting to be found.

The Black Wolf has been sitting beside me these past few weeks in what I at first assumed was a random bought of depression. But no. He was patiently waiting for me to pull myself inward, to hermit, and realize that I've been doling out too many pieces of me and not keeping enough to myself. He wanted me to see that I need to spend time nurturing and reconnecting with myself, that the funk I've been in was very much of my own making. My spirit has been feeling listless and disconnected, it longs to reconnect with my heart and the divine. The Black Wolf teaches me that I need to learn how to say 'no' when I want or need to and stop worrying about how folks will take it. Stop being a 'yes' woman and start making time for myself and my spirituality. His lesson learned, the Black Wolf bows his head and allows the Torch Bearer to lead me from his dark domain.

The Black Wolf and The Torch Bearer are balanced, as each has lessons to teach that require my time. While the Goddess shows me the light of happiness and hope, the Black Wolf asks me to look into the darkness. While laughter may be the best medicine, sometimes a good cry can be just as cathartic. When we dance in the darkness, the light will always be the brighter for it.

12 comments:

  1. Hekate and and her hounds came to my mind as soon as I saw this. Balanced, in between and magical.

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  2. I battle the black wolf myself, though I was never creative enough to call it that. I relate to your description though. He and I are friends of old, if you can call him a friend. The art you made is beautiful though. I hope you find your balance soon.

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  3. You have amazing insight here. I'm feeling this post resonate in my chest & my eyes are a bit teary... Darkness is so often viewed as a bad thing, but like you said, it can be necessary to rest & turn inward. Here's to you're finding your balance & keeping some of yourself for yourself. *Hugs* ^-^

    XOXO

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  4. I absolutely love this. Love your art, love the idea brought forth. I've never really put anything to my feelings before like you have here, and I think it's great. I hope you won't mind if I steal this analogy--with full credit given, fo course. Thanks for this, dear!

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  5. Rawr... My computer randomly refreshed my page, so my comment was lost. I HATE when that happens... o_O

    Anywho... Thanks for the encouragement. It is very much appreciated always, but especially at the moment. I feel sometimes that we're diving off a cliff into unknown waters... which we kinda are. But in a good way I suppose... I've never thought of it as being brave, mostly 'cause I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing half the time & that I'm flying by the seat of my bloomers... But it makes me feel more brave knowing that a friend thinks it's a brave move. ^-^
    I've never seen Trainspotting, so I'll have to add that to my list of movies to watch. And as for my FC quote list... It's practically the entire movie. XP
    Britt & I randomly quote bits & pieces at each other all the time... it's hilarious, or at least we find it so... but no one else really gets what we're talking about, so they just stare at us strangely... XD

    Anywho, I'm off to bed, but again, I really appreciate the positive vibes I got from you this afternoon. Thankies & lots of uber hugs!

    XOXO

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  6. This is a stunningly beautiful piece. I love its starkness. Thank you for explaining the meaning behind it.

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  7. This is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing with us! Hugging you close!

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  8. Beautiful art drawn by such a beautiful spirit. You are exceptional in the insights you are able to describe in words as well as your art. With your recognition of the darkness and its meanings, you will never be far from lighter times. Hugs and blessings.

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  9. I understand and feel every word, and now see my own darkness in a different light. I love that it's a Black Wolf, since I've always seen them as protectors. Such beautiful imagery, I will try to see the darkness as my own Black Wolf, spinning me around so that when the Light returns it will cast a different glow with new shadows that I was unable to see before, but needed to. ~Blessings~

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  10. This is absolutely fantastic Danni!!! Probably one of my most favourite of your creations to date!

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  11. Your words beautifully describe the balance that is within all of us. It is amazing when a Woman realizes this balance and goes with the flow, embracing it. You are an old soul and I always learn so much from you.

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  12. I will come back to read this, but for now I just want to say this is WONDERFUL! great work, frame it!
    Susan

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