Thursday, September 9, 2010

New Moon Magic



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Many new moons have come and gone with my only knowledge of their happening occurring when I take note of the calendar. I'm not tremendously sensitive to moon phases and usually just keep an eye on it to tell what phase it's in. Yesterday's moon however, was a pretty exceptional exception to the norm.

The moon began tugging at me almost a week ago. I had an extraordinarily terrible day at coffee-bucks and came home feeling worn out, worn thin and wanting to just crawl under a rock and wait with the fairy folk for humanity to sort itself out before coming out again. I sat on the patio drinking my tea, sniffling from my cold (I'm much better now, thank you for all of your energies and concern!), feeling generally miserable when a tremendous calm enveloped me. I went and pulled a card from my Paulina Tarot Deck and drew the Eight of Pentacles which, especially in this deck, is a card that sings to me of creative endeavors and learning as you go.

Saturday while we were at the Apple Festival, Joe looked me straight in the eye while I was slurping down an Apple Slushie and told me to quit my job and focus on art while I look for something I'll enjoy. The thought of doing so and losing the financial buffer my crummy job affords us completely terrifies me, so I tell him very simply that I can't right now. When we get home he proceeds to draw up a budget while I paint and shows me that even without me working, we can accomplish all the things we want to, it will just take a few months longer. He tells me he has faith in me and my art and wants me to be the kind of happy I am when people don't treat me like I'm a 4th class citizen, tell me to 'go fuck myself' when I ask if they have anything smaller than a $100 and occasionally throw hot coffee at me because they asked for too many Splendas and it's disgustingly sweet. (True story... it's happened to me twice, once because of the Splenda thing. With my temper, I'm surprised I'm still employed.) I'm still terrified of the loss of funds however and didn't give my notice the next day.

When I went to bed that night, I asked Mother Moon to help me find my way. I told her I feel irresponsible and like a quitter for wanting out of my job so desperately after only a few months. I asked for a dream, a feeling, a spark... anything to help me know what the right move is. I fell asleep and remembered not a single one of my dreams. I forgot all about it.

Until yesterday, when I was invited via Etsy to participate in a local arts and crafts show in late November. It's a smaller one being held in a high school, but they had a successful event the last two years with over 50 crafters. I think it will be a great way to get a feel for shows to start with something smaller and to be personally invited to participate made my week!

Last night I did a ritual for conviction, personal strength and courage in new endeavors and sent my thanks out to the universe for all of the subtle nudges and in your face shoves it's given me this past week. I also joined up with Mrs. B and a horde of pagans to send supportive, positive energy to help each other with new beginnings and renewals.

Today I'm writing up my resignation letter and will be done with cofee-bucks in Mid October. I normally wouldn't give a month's notice, but I'll be going on a trip for a little over a week, which I will tell you all about in another post as this ramble is quite long enough.

14 comments:

  1. Yeah, darling girl. You gotcho self a good Joe. I should know huh? I will send my thoughts and energies of conviction for you as well. You are very talented and will do well. Mother Moon and all your sisters are with you. New Moon Blessings, The Olde Bagg

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  2. Yay! and the new moon is a perfect time for this (plus- you'll be starting new endeavors in the new year!)

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  3. I send you positive energy and the brightest blessings.

    I worked in a coffee thing (Tim Hortons). I've lasted 2 weeks. It was horrible. I'm not made for that!

    Your guy is great and holds great values. Your happiness worth way more than some bucks....

    <3

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  4. It is a beautiful time for new beginnings! Sending positive energy your way!

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  5. I'm so glad to hear that you have this wonderful opportunity and that you are going for it. I know you'll do great!
    blessings
    ~*~

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  6. What a loving and supportive hubby you have, you're a lucky woman in that regard.

    Best wishes on your new endevour.

    Also, kudos to you for not ripping those asshats who threw coffee at you and said those rude things a new hole. I can't say I would have had so much restraint. I probably would have been doing a plea on my blog for bail money : )

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  7. way to go! I know you will find even more inspiration w/out all the Bs of the "general public" thrown in your face everyday. I will be sending you good vibes so that this transition will go smoothly.

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  8. You are a great and courageous girl! Good luck with Your new life as I am absolutely sure You have decided the right path! I am looking forward to Your new blooming artistic fantasies!

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  9. I think this is great. Congratulations on your decision even though it is scary. Your stuff will do wonderful at the fair.

    Good luck!

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  10. That is absolutely amazing!! Go for it sweetie you have the talent by far. And give the hubby lots of long distance appreciation from me for supporting you and letting you live your dream.

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  11. Wow - so proud of you for taking this step! It's not easy to give up extra money, but freeing up your time and energy from something better to come into your life is a good thing! Who was it that said if all your runways are full, no planes can land?

    So excited to hear more about the local show you will be doing!

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  12. One of the few benefits of being in a crappy, dead-end job is that it feels so satisfying to quit. The Buddha didn't list Starbucks among the dishonest occupations to steer clear of on the Eightfold Path to self-awareness, but I think it would make the list today.

    Congratulations on taking that first step onto a new and better path. And keep posting more of your drawings!

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  13. Hug your man. Then hug him again. He is awesome & so sweet, I could just pop. =D

    I cannot tell you how happy I am for you that you not only have such a wonderfully supportive partner, but that you can quit working for assholes. I'm so happy for you, I could dance around the room! ^-^

    You must have much more self control than I, as I would have been up over that counter faster than the coffee slinger could blink. I can feel my blood pressure rising just thinking about it.

    Ok. Deep breaths. Chilling out. I'm happy. Yes. ^-^

    As I was saying, I'm so excited for you & the craft fair sounds just fantastic!

    Oh yes, and I can't wait to hear about your trip!

    Hang in there for this last month & I am counting down the days until you can have your very own Braveheart moment... No, not the part where he's running around with the big sword (although I love to see that... XD) You know, the part where he yells, "FREEEEEEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOMMM!!!"

    =D

    Have an awesome weekend! And one more 'WooHOO!!!' just for good measure. ^-^

    xoxo

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  14. BRILLIANT!!!!! Oh, you fabulous YOU!! (and what an awesome man you have there...what a treasure he is!!)

    This is SO inspiring...I'm positively fizzing over with happiness for you (and i don't even know you! LOL)

    I just LOVE these sorts of stories...

    YES, YES, YES!! WOOOOOT!!

    Enjoy this...enjoy it. It's the only way to be, y'know?

    :)

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